There Must Be Something Else, There Must Be Something Good Far Away From Here

‘Down On The Upside’ album cover

I’m finding it hard to let the passing of Chris Cornell go. 

It’s always in the back of my mind at the moment. When I’ve been picking music to listen to over the past few days days it’s mainly been his body of work that I’ve delved into, apart from Soundgarden’s ‘Down On The Upside’ and the Temple Of The Dog album’s. They’re still too raw for me. 

A good few of my friends have been feeling the same. We didn’t know him, we didn’t meet, but his music and performances meant something to us. His words touched our souls, his music soothed us, his words guided us. 

We have talked a lot about what his music meant to us, the memories we have, how they connect us. I’ve heard of couples meeting because of the band, of night’s out, of gigs, of hearing that voice. 

Like I said in my previous blog, for me he’s linked with becoming who I am, and also the passing of my grandparents. Music had often been my medicine, and it still continues to be so. It is what helps me through the day at times. 

Some people look at the outpouring of grief and wonder why people feel so said. It’s the same kind of reaction when David Bowie passed away. We are sad because his art meant something to us, it connected us to him in ways that you can’t quite comprehend. To me, I’m reminded of good times and bad times, of friendships, of chats about music, about times of introspection and inspiration. 

A week on and I can’t shake it from me. At the moment I’m still finding it hard to wrap my head around. In the disposable nature our world has become he provided something in his music that is eternal, something that reaches out and touches your soul. 

I keep getting to hold thoughts of positivity through his music and his words, but also feelings of sadness and occasionally anger. Damn it, why did you have to go? Why did that become your only option? Why did you feel that leaving us behind was your only choice? I can empathise with how he must have felt. I’ve been there. I know what it’s like. You don’t think straight. Everything becomes so clouded and twisted you can’t think think straight. Everything doesn’t feel right, you feel pushed down a corridor where the door at the end seems like the only option.

Please, if you EVER feel that way. Talk to someone, anyone. Tell someone how you feel. Try to draw hope from somewhere. You’re not alone in this. 

I must obey the rules

I must be tame and cool 

No staring at the clouds

I must stay on the ground

In clusters of the mice

The smoke is in our eyes

Like babies on display

Like angels in a cage

I must be pure and true

I must contain my views

There must be something else

There must me something good

Far away

Far away from here

Far away, far away from here

Far away, far away from here

Far away, far away from here

Far away, I’m far away from here

And I’ll be here for good

“Boot Camp” – Soundgarden from the album ‘Down On The Upside’

The title of the this installment of my blog comes from the song “Boot Camp” by Soundgarden. You can find a  live video of it on YouTube here Soundgarden – “Boot Camp (Live)”. I’ve also now created a playlist on Spotify featuring the songs I include in my blog. You can find it over at The Order Of The Dog Spotify Playlist. I’ll update it every time a new blog is published.

As usual, if you’d like to chat to me further you can email me at theorderofthedog@gmail.com and I’ll get back to you as soon as I can. I’ve created a closed support group on Facebook also called The Order Of The Dog. It’s there for people who struggle with mental health issues as well as people who want to support and get a better understanding. It’s a closed group which means only members get to see and interact with what’s posted there. Finally, please feel free to share this blog with anyone and anywhere you think it might help.

Cheers,
Scott
The Order Of The Dog.

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