Light at the End of the Tunnel I put my headset on and called through to my manager on Teams. "You know," I said to her, "sometimes you need to have a difficult conversation with someone........" Eight hours prior to this conversation I was sitting on the edge of my bed, wide awake and alert. … Continue reading Here Come The Lonely Night I Can’t Escape My Mind
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These Tell Tale Signs Are Here To Stay And In The End You Know That’s OK
It creeps around to that time of year. It always leaves me feeling like there's a pit in my stomach, that spaced out feeling in my head. Today is International Suicide Prevention Day. Every year I take part in some activities to try and help destigmatise these situations. I always hope that each year will … Continue reading These Tell Tale Signs Are Here To Stay And In The End You Know That’s OK
Standing Under Bright Lights – Talking about Grief, Music and Life with Alex Henry Foster
In this post I talk with musician Alex Henry Foster and how the loss of his father shaped his debut album
The Bleeding of Me
Three sessions into my CBT therapy and I'm starting to feel the strain
Drowning In The Sound
Trying to cope with The Noise that is my anxiety
Please Don’t Tell Me Everything Is Wonderful Now
The third lockdown anxiety meltdown blues
For All We Could Have Done And All That Could Have Been
Thirty years. The world is a completely different place to what existed then. My landscape has completely changed. Thirty years ago I was emotionally stunted, trying to stitch myself back together after falling apart the previous year. You could probably say that my grip on reality was tenuous at best. I was skinny and skittish … Continue reading For All We Could Have Done And All That Could Have Been
Running Out Of Empathy, Running Out Of Who I Used To Be
I need something to stop my heart feeling so heavy at the moment. I'm back at work after a couple of months off with anxiety. Was I ready to be back? I don't think I quite was but I was ready to try being back. I'm taking counselling sessions (seven so far) each week. It's … Continue reading Running Out Of Empathy, Running Out Of Who I Used To Be
Don’t Worry If You Don’t Know What To Do I’ve Spent A Little Time In Worried Shoes
There's a good few people I know out there that are going through some tough times at the moment. There's so many different kinds of things they're going through. Some are related to an ongoing struggle with The Dog. For others they are trying to make sense of the world they're in and their position … Continue reading Don’t Worry If You Don’t Know What To Do I’ve Spent A Little Time In Worried Shoes
Remove Your Heart It’s Only Good For Bleeding
I'm going to start this blog with a warning. It's going to touch on some very delicate topics that may trigger a few people. So, if you are of a delicate disposition then please don't read any further and close it down. I don't want people being upset in any way because of what I've … Continue reading Remove Your Heart It’s Only Good For Bleeding