It's been a good while since I've put my thoughts and feelings into words. Since my dad passed away last year, my life has become a blur of change in a positive way. Now I reside west of Glasgow, where I see the Clyde every day slowly moving life elsewhere. I've struggled to compose words … Continue reading Our Marra Brian
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Here Come The Lonely Night I Can’t Escape My Mind
Light at the End of the Tunnel I put my headset on and called through to my manager on Teams. "You know," I said to her, "sometimes you need to have a difficult conversation with someone........" Eight hours prior to this conversation I was sitting on the edge of my bed, wide awake and alert. … Continue reading Here Come The Lonely Night I Can’t Escape My Mind
“O Captain! my Captain!” ~ For John Lambert
Myself and John Lambert I've been trying to write this down for days now, a tribute to my friend so passed away recently. Tomorrow he's laid to rest and we'll celebrate his life and his influence. John Lambert was so many different things to different people. A Yorkshireman who grew up in Africa. A clown. … Continue reading “O Captain! my Captain!” ~ For John Lambert
These Tell Tale Signs Are Here To Stay And In The End You Know That’s OK
It creeps around to that time of year. It always leaves me feeling like there's a pit in my stomach, that spaced out feeling in my head. Today is International Suicide Prevention Day. Every year I take part in some activities to try and help destigmatise these situations. I always hope that each year will … Continue reading These Tell Tale Signs Are Here To Stay And In The End You Know That’s OK
Standing Under Bright Lights – Talking about Grief, Music and Life with Alex Henry Foster
In this post I talk with musician Alex Henry Foster and how the loss of his father shaped his debut album
The Bleeding of Me
Three sessions into my CBT therapy and I'm starting to feel the strain
Drowning In The Sound
Trying to cope with The Noise that is my anxiety
Please Don’t Tell Me Everything Is Wonderful Now
The third lockdown anxiety meltdown blues
Weltschmerz
Weltschmerz: /ˈvɛltʃmɛrt͜s,Wéltschmerz/ (literal translation - world pain). Sadness or melancholy over the state of the world; world-weariness. There's a quiet noise somewhere just beyond the limits of my hearing and my perception, the sound of the sands of my life slowly falling away in it's glass prison. No matter what happens next the last year … Continue reading Weltschmerz
28(2) Days Later…
Reflection in the Puddle I've been pretty quiet here over the past few months. I thought that lockdown and the the effects of the Covid would have seen me write so much more but I didn't (the title is a nice nod to the film "28 Days Later" and the fact that it's coincidently 282 … Continue reading 28(2) Days Later…