The Bleeding of Me

Three sessions into my CBT therapy and I'm starting to feel the strain

Drowning In The Sound

Trying to cope with The Noise that is my anxiety

Please Don’t Tell Me Everything Is Wonderful Now

The third lockdown anxiety meltdown blues

For All We Could Have Done And All That Could Have Been

Thirty years. The world is a completely different place to what existed then. My landscape has completely changed. Thirty years ago I was emotionally stunted, trying to stitch myself back together after falling apart the previous year. You could probably say that my grip on reality was tenuous at best. I was skinny and skittish …

Running Out Of Empathy, Running Out Of Who I Used To Be

I need something to stop my heart feeling so heavy at the moment. I'm back at work after a couple of months off with anxiety. Was I ready to be back? I don't think I quite was but I was ready to try being back. I'm taking counselling sessions (seven so far) each week. It's …

Don’t Worry If You Don’t Know What To Do I’ve Spent A Little Time In Worried Shoes

There's a good few people I know out there that are going through some tough times at the moment. There's so many different kinds of things they're going through. Some are related to an ongoing struggle with The Dog. For others they are trying to make sense of the world they're in and their position …

Remove Your Heart It’s Only Good For Bleeding

I'm going to start this blog with a warning. It's going to touch on some very delicate topics that may trigger a few people. So, if you are of a delicate disposition then please don't read any further and close it down. I don't want people being upset in any way because of what I've …

Trying Is The Point Of Life So Don’t Stop Trying, Promise Me

How down so you have to be for you to realise that you're down? Can you have an awareness of your own situation enough that you are aware of every moment of decline? At what point do you realise that you're able to go "hey, I'm not in a good place at all"? Last weekend's, …

Remembering The Times I Pray To Help Me Deal With Me

My tiredness isn't letting me sleep tonight. The past few days have felt pretty brutal. I knew something wasn't feeling quite right with myself when I woke up on Friday. Everything felt that little bit off kilter but I was working through it. My mood was starting to feel a bit dark and I felt …

Searching For The Ground With My Good Eye Closed

I keep trying to write. It's not that there's writers block. Far from it, I'm being creative. It's more that I start over analysing the results, leading me to abandon them. So, here I am, throwing more words at the virtual page, hoping that some of them stick. The past few months have contained several …