Don’t Worry If You Don’t Know What To Do I’ve Spent A Little Time In Worried Shoes

There's a good few people I know out there that are going through some tough times at the moment. There's so many different kinds of things they're going through. Some are related to an ongoing struggle with The Dog. For others they are trying to make sense of the world they're in and their position …

Remove Your Heart It’s Only Good For Bleeding

I'm going to start this blog with a warning. It's going to touch on some very delicate topics that may trigger a few people. So, if you are of a delicate disposition then please don't read any further and close it down. I don't want people being upset in any way because of what I've …

You Can Come To Terms And Realise You’re The Only One Who Cannot Forgive Yourself (The Anxiety Diaries Part 5)

Acceptance.  It's just one word but it's one word that could just be the key to my condition.  Today was my fifth over the phone counseling session, which looks as though we'll be extending up to nine in total. Today we looked back over the Christmas and New Year period, nearly two weeks since my …

If You Just Close Your Eyes You Can Feel The Enemy (The Anxiety Diaries Part 4)

I’ve decided to name this stretch of my blog “The Anxiety Diaries” so I can keep track of what I’ve been like during this period. Also, I’m hoping it will allow people to see what it’s like and what goes through my head during my prolonged spells of anxiety.  Sometimes you just need to stand …

I Don’t Know, It’s All I’ve Been, What You Sow Is My Last Sin (The Anxiety Diaries Part 3)

I’ve decided to name this stretch of my blog “The Anxiety Diaries” so I can keep track of what I’ve been like during this period. Also, I’m hoping it will allow people to see what it’s like and what goes through my head during my prolonged spells of anxiety.  Things are starting to change, I …

There Was This One Time Where Everything Was Okay (The Anxiety Diaries Part 1)

I’ve decided to name this stretch of my blog “The Anxiety Diaries” so I can keep track of what I’ve been like during this period. Also, I’m hoping it will allow people to see what it’s like and what goes through my head during my prolonged spells of anxiety.  The grey and damp Tuesday morning …

I Won’t Back Down

Today is Worldwide Mental Health Awareness Day. Today is a day where we should talk about what we go through, enlighten others with our stories, our trials and tribulations. By remaining silent, by not talking, we perpetuate the myth that we should remain quiet, that we should suffer in silence.  When we do this we …

When You Feel Life Coming Down

Every time I come here to start writing it feels harder to put words down in a way that feels meaningful and worthwhile. Part of it lies in the nature of my illness. Just because I suffer with anxiety and depression doesn't mean I'm permanently in some deep pit of existential self torment. Over the …

I’m Strong On The Surface Not All The Way Through

I was heading home when I heard of the passing of Chester Bennington from suicide.  I'd hoped it was just another cruel hoax, that it was just some sick joke.  Immediately I went on WhatsApp and reached out to a friend who was a huge fan of Chester's band Linkin Park who confirmed it. It's …

“I Tried To Talk to Him Over And Over but Always Went About It The Wrong Way” – Talking About Living With Someone Else’s Mental Health Issues with Jill

I was going through the 'On This Day' section on my Facebook profile the other day (one of the few things I actually seem to enjoy about it at the moment) when I saw mention of an interview my old band did. Cool, I thought, I wonder what the interviewer is up to now so …