For All We Could Have Done And All That Could Have Been

Thirty years. The world is a completely different place to what existed then. My landscape has completely changed. Thirty years ago I was emotionally stunted, trying to stitch myself back together after falling apart the previous year. You could probably say that my grip on reality was tenuous at best. I was skinny and skittish …

I Don’t Know, It’s All I’ve Been, What You Sow Is My Last Sin (The Anxiety Diaries Part 3)

I’ve decided to name this stretch of my blog “The Anxiety Diaries” so I can keep track of what I’ve been like during this period. Also, I’m hoping it will allow people to see what it’s like and what goes through my head during my prolonged spells of anxiety.  Things are starting to change, I …

“Music Brings Me The Most Happiness In Life” – Talking Music Obsession, Book Writing And Mental Health With Gary

What do you do when you love a band so much? You write a book about it of course! Gary Davidson has just released “Zealot In Wonderland”, a book based on his love of the musician Ginger Wildheart, frontman of The Wildhearts as well as many other bands. The book also tells of the story …

There Must Be Something Else, There Must Be Something Good Far Away From Here

I'm finding it hard to let the passing of Chris Cornell go.  It's always in the back of my mind at the moment. When I've been picking music to listen to over the past few days days it's mainly been his body of work that I've delved into, apart from Soundgarden's 'Down On The Upside' …

I Never Wanted To Write These Words Down For You

I'd only been up for an hour or so before the news started breaking through of the passing of Chris Cornell of Soundgarden shortly after a show. He'd been an influence and an inspiration for me, and to quite a few of my close friends too. I was describing a to friend of mine how his …

This Is How You Talk To Her When No One Else Is Listening

I took some time off from things last week and headed down South for a few days. I needed a break, not realising how much I needed it until I actually arrived in the warm hospitality of my friend's home.  When I was there I took the opportunity to get some downtime and see some …

One Hundred

This is my one hundredth blog.  It might not mean much to you but it really does to me.  When I first started writing this it was a way for me to share what I'd gone through. It was helpful, it allowed me to make  thoughts that were in my head, heart  and soul that …

Stretch The Skin Over My Head

Trying to explain depression and anxiety feels like an impossible task at times.  The what and the why can be concepts that come across like whispers and ghosts rather than tangible facts. If there was something physical that people could see or touch I'm sure it would be easier for people to understand and relate …

We’re As Good As Each Other…And We’ll Talk Of Tomorrow When There’ll Be No More Sorrow

A friend of mine posted a well written blog yesterday regarding the stigma around being open about mental health issues (you can read that here and I urge you to do so). It made me think about how some people frown upon people who talk about it openly in public forums.  When we're brought into this world …

The Future Teaches You To Be Alone, The Present To Be Afraid And Cold

Why do I conqtinue to write? Why do I feel the need to keep doing this? There's only one real reason for it..... Stories.  Stories are important, stories are how we learn, stories form the ties that bind us all together through shared experience.  Originally this blog was supposed to be a way to vent …